[H] Dealing with the fact that I’m a no-skill player
Well, the latest coaching evolution was to force myself to play without sound. Ever since, things went haywire. I basically can’t win. Lost the ability.
I’m on a losing streak (even lost to a silver player on NA’s Bronze Practice channel) because not only do I try to focus on my macro but when I forget a set of pylons, my macro spirals down quickly and I completely forget how to play the game and what to do.
The problem is not about playing others; the problem is me: I can’t focus, be reactive and be quick at once because I don’t have that skill.
- I never really needed to focus in my endeavors except when I’m doing a research (and making data webs in my mind).
- Reaction? Unless I force a reaction, I don’t really react either way.
- I wish the interface could be changed as one wishes. I’d so put the resource and supply part on the bottom left over the minimap. I don’t have that speed yet.
- My only skill (and yet it deteriorates when I have to focus on something else) is macroing unpressured. Today’s DT batch from Markus only proved that (I dealt with them but my macro spiraled, right now I can’t detach my brain from “Impending danger: get those DTs outta here now!”).
Just how the hell am I supposed to improve from this stage onwards? And why was I reacting better with sound? Why is the game completely different, seriously? Even 10000 games won’t get me out of this funk when I don’t know how to partition my brain into three, I need pointers. I’m not sure that playing button-mash cycle is that fun, if you were to ask me.
Yeah, I’m QQing and am stressed out on this.